古今

在其實還算順利地找到博士後研究的位子以後
我必須說
找工作還真是件痛苦的事

焦心等待回音 等待面試 等待錄用通知中
有一天晚上我突然想起紅樓夢裡襲人說的一句話

“你成心要攆他 也好 我們也都願意出去
橫豎你也不愁沒有好的服侍你“

可不是嘛
那些教授也不愁沒有好的 巴巴地等著為他工作呢！

在學校裡功課再好又怎樣
終究是像爭著當寶玉的丫鬟一樣賤骨頭

No!!!!!!!!!

Joachim Johansson defeated !!!!!!!

I cannot believe this!!!!!!

Safin was defeated too!!!!!

I am so sad!!!!!!

溫不蹲第三天

昨天沒時間寫

Joachim Johansson 打敗 Greg Rusedski 進入第三輪

比數是 7:6 (12:10), 3:6, 6:4, 7:6 (7:5)

第一發發進率 66%
第一發得分率 79%
23 Aces,

最快球速 140 MPH

還是太多 unforced error, 29 個

是之前受傷的關係嗎
還是本來就不行？

帥哥也不是好當的
就是打贏了 球迷還是嫌東嫌西

昨天都是討厭的菲德勒同時打的關係
害我只看到最後幾分鐘

大帥哥也有奇怪左手

所
以
職
業
級
的
都
一
樣

小帥哥的奇怪左手

好像彈琵琶一樣

唉呀

盧彥勳被打敗了

6:2, 3:6, 2:6, 6:4, 5:7

嗚嗚嗚


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不過我很高興西班牙的那達也被淘汰了

Cho

Cho
Originally uploaded by Trianghost.

I think the stats are wrong in Wimbledon.

According to the Wimbledon site, this Korean professional tennis player is only 142 cm tall !!!

That is 20 cm shorter than me!

And the most amazing thing is,
she won the first round against a player who is 176 cm tall!!!

Amazing woman!

Yen-Hsun Lu

Yen-Hsun Lu
Originally uploaded by Trianghost.

To be fair, I also posted a picture of the best Chinese tennis player in current history.

這種藉口要學起來

摘自聯合新聞網

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隨後戰局詭譎，由於首盤雙方元氣大傷，盧彥勳可能考量到對手年紀比自己大，同時為了讓自己喘口氣，在戰略性考量下並未全力以赴，在連續被破了三個發球局後，讓克里蒙以6：0扳平。

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以後不小心被人家六比零時可以拿出來用.

HaHaHaHaHa.......

盧彥勳

溫不蹲進入第二輪

除了帥哥之外

我也是會支持中國人的

比數是 7:6 (7:4), 0:6, 6:1, 3:6, 6:3

雖然被法國鬼子六比零有點難看

能打贏曾經世界排名第十的人也很了不起了
（雖然此人已高齡二十七）

下一場打 原來是南斯拉夫的某國家的 Janko Tipsarevec
這人目前世界排名第一百零九

好消息是 此人晉級是因為他今天打的種子 Tommy Haas 棄賽
打他應該比打那傢伙容易些吧

盧彥勳加一百油！！！

Johansson_6_packs

Johansson_6_packs
Originally uploaded by Trianghost.

As Title.

Need we say more?

Joachim Johansson

joachim_head
Originally uploaded by Trianghost.

Gosh he is so beautiful!

In my next life I would like to be a good-looking tennis pro like him!

Joachim Johansson-Wimbledon (Day 1)

June 20, 2005

第一場直落三打敗了西班牙的 Albert Motanes

7:6(7:5), 6:4, 7:5

第一發發進率 60%
第一發得分率 90%
共有 13 個愛司
問題是 unforced error 太多

好想看小帥哥打喔！

體育的事

哈哈哈哈哈哈

神奇的王建民終於讓我在電視上看到了

贊美提供電視的杭州姑娘

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明天溫不蹲要開打了

請大家注意十一號種子瑞典小帥哥 Joachim Johansson

這是去年美國公開賽把討厭的羅迪克打得七葷八素的金髮美男子

請大家告訴大家

Why do so many people believe?

One of the arguments used by Christians is that,
If there is no God Almighty, how could so many people believe in him?

The answer to that is simple:
It is easier to believe than not to.

Is it not nice to know that all the injustice in the world will eventually be avenged?
Is it not nice to know that you are not alone in your struggle against your personal tragedies?
Is it not nice to know that if you pray hard enough, your wishes might be granted?

Is it not nice to know that,
the loved ones that died somehow still exist somewhere waiting for you?

What if all the suffering is meaningless?
What if no higher being gives a shxt about the starving crowds in Africa?
What if my grandfather is forever lost to us, both body and soul, the moment he passed away?
What if there is only nothingness after I die?

That is kind of scary, actually.
It takes a lot of real courage to look at life as it is, and be a true atheist before new evidence surface.
Most of us who are not convinced by the illogical doctrines of existing religions
merely hide in the shadow of agnostism,
because it is so much easier.

It is so much easier to think that there is some higher Body looking after us,
and that there is existence after death.

Just like it is easy to convince a dying cancer patient that drinking homeopathic potions could treat him.

However, the naturalness, the ease to believe in such things never grants them any credit of being true.
Simply because you want to believe something doesn't mean it's true.

這樣的文章才叫痛快淋漓

趙少康不愧是趙少康,
今天在北大清華演講的若是他,
我才想聽。

連宋算什麼,
不過是比阿扁冷靜些罷了,
說穿了全都是庸才。

趙少康才是令我心服的領導者。


陳水扁快看心理醫生 2005年05月13日


最近不少人見面都互問：「陳水扁是不是瘋了？」「他到底在想什麼？」台聯立委建議他吃鎮靜劑，陳水扁是不是瘋了我不知道，不過我不反對他找個心理醫生好好檢查檢查，如果有病也可以早點治療，避免未來三年會有什麼瘋狂的行為，害了兩千三百萬人。
陳水扁不僅是「當家鬧事」，簡直是「當家搞革命」，鬧得你流彈四射、烽火遍地，靠近他的人無一幸免，愈近的愈倒楣，這種「惟恐天下不夠亂」的治國方式，古今少見。罵連打宋批李笑蘇出賣許文龍，一口氣全給他幹光，還真搞得「四不像」、父不父、子不子，現任不像現任，卸任不像卸任。

不變的就是陳水扁的變
陳水扁當然有他的盤算，批連宋是為了鞏固綠色選票，跟李登輝劃清界線是向胡錦濤表態，看能不能換來「扁胡會」，以免八年任期一事無成，問題是現在誰敢相信扁？誰知道下一刻他會不會變臉？「我看他五一四國代選完之後就會換上另一副嘴臉，五二○景色又是不同。」
不變的就是陳水扁的變。
台灣的選民選出這樣的人來，才是台灣最大的悲哀，最深的不幸要所有的人一起承受，是最徹底的不公平。
李登輝該罵，誰都可以罵，除了陳水扁不適合罵，如果不是李當年「棄黃保陳」、「棄連保扁」、「合理化、正當化台獨」、「把黑名單上的台獨份子請到總統府做座上客」、「分化國民黨」、「分段搞台獨」，哪有今天的陳水扁。
看扁李互罵、反目成仇，雖然早在意料之中，心裡還是很爽，這也是報應，李身邊的人大多也以「眾叛親離」收場，宋心廉不明不白死了，宋楚瑜、蘇志誠、劉泰英、郝柏村⋯⋯陳水扁也好不到哪裡去。

李登輝以綠制綠夠厲害
李登輝從來沒有相信過陳水扁，他用更偏激的台灣民族主義搞台聯，就是「以綠制綠」，老傢伙還是厲害，否則他早被扁給關進大牢裡去了，要找他的紕漏還怕找不到？
陳水扁說自己從來沒變，真要把人笑死，他一下子喊「台獨萬萬歲」，一下子喊「一邊一國」，又說要「○六制憲、○八新憲」，天天叫「公投制憲正名」，又改教科書，又改公營事業名字，又亂出考題，又要去中國化，一下子妖魔化中共，一下子又罵對手「聯共賣台」，他把支持者的熱情熊熊燒起，讓他們的血液澎湃沸騰，以為獨立必勝，建國必成，而且就在眼前，突然就在這時當頭澆他們一大桶冰水，還說這是「自欺欺人」，你說可不可惡？支持者怎能不生氣？話都被你一個人講光了，大家都是傻瓜，只有你一人得利。
唉，他竟是台灣選民一票一票選出來的，你還有什麼話說？

趙少康

Please write back to me!!!

Dear Dr. Big Shot:

I've got a PhD and I'm quite wonderful.

You should hire me.

If you don't believe me, ask the following people:

Dr. Big Shot Also and Likes Me
Dr. Not So Big Shot But Still Big and Likes Me
Dr. Not Big Shot But Likes Me

Sincerely,

Triangle

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Why don't they write back???
Why???
Why???
Why???

不要臉的男人

挺台聯台籍日本兵：慰安婦九成是自願的


記者何明國／台北報導


立法院台聯黨團昨天邀來學者和台籍日本兵，他們肯定台聯黨主席蘇進強赴日本靖國神社參拜，並批國民黨主席連戰漠視台籍日本兵求償權益、行政院長謝長廷是「假台灣人」。台聯立委曾燦燈則表示，十個台籍慰安婦中有八個是自願去賺錢的。

近廿位台籍日本老兵昨天到無黨籍立委高金素梅的辦公室外抗議，他們支持蘇進強參拜靖國神社，表示有人願意到靖國神社安慰台籍老兵的英靈，是很好的事情，不希望很單純的事被泛政治化。高金素梅在日前蘇進強返台時，率領群眾到機場抗議。

向高金素梅抗議的老兵隨後前往台聯黨團，與台聯黨團幹部、台灣人四百年史作者史明等人一起出席記者會，力挺蘇進強。台聯黨團總召羅志明痛批，高金素梅把慰安婦、原住民當成個人鬥爭的工具，並呼籲泛藍等統派人士不要模糊焦點。

記者會場一位台籍日本兵情緒激動說，「慰安婦九成以上是自願的，只想賺錢」。另一位曾是日軍女看護的婦女也強調，當時隨軍的台灣女性有兩種，一種是女看護，被迫隨軍照顧病患；另一種是慰安婦，「她們只想賺錢，做的是商業行為」。

不過「慰安婦是自願的賺錢行為」的說法，令主持記者會的羅志明有點尷尬，趕緊結束記者會，他強調，台聯願意協助台籍日本老兵、女看護和慰安婦向日本求償。他也說，台聯主張把靖國神社中的兩萬八千台灣兵英靈移回台灣，由政府在台灣蓋一個「英烈祠」。

台聯立委曾燦燈在立法院表示，台籍慰安婦有兩種，一種是很高興去做慰安婦，自願去賺錢，在十個慰安婦中，有八個都是這種。

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真是不要臉的男人,
這種話都說得出口！

這些當過日本兵的人,
如果當初是自願的,
就表示他們當年是支持日本軍國主義的,
不管是不是因為年少無知或是受了日本教育洗腦,
跟那些在黃土高原在南京在南太平洋姦殺擄掠平民百姓的真正日本兵沒有不同。
他們雖然不是發動戰爭的決策者,
卻絕對是戰爭中的殺人機器, 而且殺的包括無力反擊的平民。
二戰過後沒有成為戰犯,
是因為有真正無辜的可憐人是被拉伕拉去的,
或是因為經濟困窘不得已而去的,
社會對這些人的境遇同情,
不代表當初的戰爭他們是站在正義人道的一方。

不管日本政府怎樣寫教科書,
南京大屠殺是他們的兵幹的,
滿州的人體實驗是他們幹的,
東北華北無數強姦是他們幹的,
還有一件南太平洋的慘案也是他們幹的, 這我等下再來說。
日本兵的手上那個沒有平民百姓的鮮血?

他們那個有臉出來說自己當初都是自願,
就應該當做戰犯來審！

至於慰安婦,
有多少個是“自願的“隨這些不要臉的男人說去。
我們應該問問這些日本兵,
那一個從沒碰過軍中的慰安婦？
要是碰過,
他們的話就跟強姦犯說“她是自願的“一樣令人發笑。

就算她們是為錢“自願的“,
那種自願多淒苦多可憐？
有什麼年輕女孩會自願去當軍妓?
不只是妓女, 是沒有家沒有燈紅酒綠
不能拒絕任何客人又隨時有生命危險的妓女。

據我看,
即使是自願也是被日本人騙去的,
何況連這些不要臉的人都還承認,
至少有十到二十percent不是自願的。

我是無法想像有心智正常的女人在有其他生路的情況下,
很高興的選擇去當軍妓。
也許台聯的曾燦燈不覺得那不是正常人會願意的。
因此只有以下幾種可能：
Ａ 曾燦燈是神經病
Ｂ 曾燦燈是願意當軍妓的賤骨頭
Ｃ 曾燦燈認為台灣女人是願意當軍妓的賤骨頭
Ｄ 曾燦燈說謊或輕信別人的謊言又缺乏判斷力（智力不高）
Ｅ 我是神經病, 其實正常人都會為了錢而當慰安婦

How to help people with eating disorders

If the person is older than 18

Legally the person is now an adult and can refuse treatment if s/he is not ready to change. Nevertheless, reach out. Tell her/him that you are concerned. Be gentle. Suggest that there has to be a better way to deal with life than starving and stuffing. Encourage professional help, but expect resistance and denial. You can lead a horse to water, but you can't make it drink -- even when it is thirsty -- if it is determined to follow its own path.

Some things to do

Talk to the person when you are calm, not frustrated or emotional. Be kind. The person is probably ashamed and fears criticism and rejection.

Mention evidence you have heard or seen that suggests disordered eating. Don't dwell on appearance or weight. Instead talk about health, relationships (withdrawal?), and mood.

Realize that the person will not change until s/he wants to.

Provide information. Show the person this Web site.

Be supportive and caring. Be a good listener and don't give advice unless you are asked to do so. Even then, be prepared to have it ignored.

Continue to suggest professional help. Don't pester. Don't give up either.

Ask: "Is doing what you are doing really working to get you what you want?"

Talk about the advantages of recovery and a normal life.

Agree that recovery is hard, but emphasize that many people have done it.

If s/he is frightened to see a counselor, offer to go with her the first time.

Realize that recovery is the person's responsibility, not yours.

Resist guilt. Do the best you can and then be gentle with yourself.



 Some things not to do

Never nag, plead, beg, bribe, threaten, or manipulate. These things don't work.

Avoid power struggles. You will lose.

Never criticize or shame. These tactics are cruel, and the person will withdraw.

Don't pry. Respect privacy.

Don't be a food monitor. You will create resentment and distance in the relationship.

Don't try to control. The person will withdraw and ultimately outwit you.

Don't waste time trying to reassure your friend that s/he is not fat. S/he will not be convinced.

Don't get involved in endless conversations about weight, food, and calories. They make matters worse.

Don't give advice unless asked.

Don't expect the person to follow your advice even if s/he asked for it.

Don't say, "You are too thin." S/he will secretly celebrate.

Don't say, "It's good you have gained weight." S/he will lose it.

Don't let the person always decide when, what and where you will eat. She should not control everything, every time.

Don't ignore stolen food and evidence of purging. Insist on responsibility.

Don't overestimate what you can accomplish.

Eating Disorder Resource

When I was very young and very foolish,
I used to hope that I would get the disease called anorexia nervosa.

I thought that was a romantic disease that would solve my problem of chubbiness.

I never really had a full-blown eating disorder. But I was way too obsessed with my weight and the things I eat
To the point that I had a problem enjoying life.

Now I know better, but I still see victims of the belief system in which
Thinness = Beauty = True Love = Happiness = A Successful Life

I feel sad for them, and very angry toward the social pressures that pushed adolescent girls into their perpetual diets.
And their perpetual feeling of unworthiness.

Below I have compiled some of the facts of eating disorders and the websites I got them from.

The ANRED Site ( http://www.anred.com )

Warning signs of eating disorders

Food behaviors

1.The person skips meals, takes only tiny portions, will not eat in front of other people, eats in ritualistic ways, and mixes strange food combinations. May chew mouthfuls of food but spits them out before swallowing. Grocery shops and cooks for the entire household, but will not eat the tasty meals. Always has an excuse not to eat -- is not hungry, just ate with a friend, is feeling ill, is upset, and so forth.

2. Becomes "disgusted" with former favorite foods like red meat and desserts. Will eat only a few "safe" foods. Boasts about how healthy the meals s/he does consume are. Becomes a "vegetarian" but will not eat the necessary fats, oils, whole grains, and the denser fruits and veggies (such as sweet potatoes and avocados) required by true vegetarianism. Chooses primarily low-fat items with low levels of other nutrients, foods such as lettuce, tomatoes, sprouts, and so forth.

3. Usually has a diet soda in hand. Drastically reduces or completely eliminates fat intake. Reads food labels religiously. If s/he breaks self-imposed rigid discipline and eats normal or large portions, excuses self from the table to vomit and get rid of the calories.

4. Or, in contrast to the above, the person gorges, usually in secret, emptying cupboards and refrigerator. May also buy special binge food. If panicked about weight gain, may purge to get rid of the calories. May leave clues that suggest discovery is desired -- empty boxes, cans, and food packages; foul smelling bathrooms; running water to cover sounds of vomiting; excessive use of mouthwash and breath mints; and in some cases, containers of vomit poorly hidden that invite discovery.

5. Sometimes the person uses laxatives, diet pills, water pills, or "natural" products from health food stores to promote weight loss. May abuse alcohol or street drugs, sometimes to deaden appetite, sometimes to escape emotional pain, and usually in hopes of feeling better, at least temporarily.


Appearance and body image behaviors

1. The person loses, or tries to lose, weight. Has frantic fears of weight gain and obesity. Wears baggy clothes, sometimes in layers, to hide fat, hide emaciation, and stay warm. Obsesses about clothing size. Complains that s/he is fat even though others truthfully say this is not so. S/he will not believe them.

2. Spends lots of time inspecting self in the mirror and usually finds something to criticize. Detests all or specific parts of the body, especially breasts, belly, thighs, and buttocks. Insists s/he cannot feel good about self unless s/he is thin, and s/he is never thin enough to satisfy her/himself.


Exercise behaviors

1. The person exercises excessively and compulsively. May tire easily, keeping up a harsh regimen only through sheer will power. As time passes, athletic performance suffers. Even so, s/he refuses to change the routine.

2. May develop strange eating patterns, supposedly to enhance athletic performance. May consume sports drinks and supplements, but total calories are less than what an active lifestyle requires.


Thoughts and beliefs

1. In spite of average or above-average intelligence, the person thinks in magical and simplistic ways, for example, "If I am thinner, I will feel better about myself." S/he loses the ability to think logically, evaluate reality objectively, and admit and correct undesirable consequences of choices and actions.

2. Becomes irrational and denies that anything is wrong. Argues with people who try to help, and then withdraws, sulks, or throws a tantrum. Wanting to be special, s/he becomes competitive. Strives to be the best, the smallest, the thinnest, and so forth.

3. Has trouble concentrating. Obsesses about food and weight and holds to rigid, perfectionistic standards for self and others.

4. Is envious of thin people in general and thinner people in particular. Seeks to emulate them.

5. Note: Not all, but a subset of people with eating disorders think they do not deserve to eat or enjoy tasty food. They starve, stuff, or purge in deliberate attempts to punish themselves. They may also cut their flesh or otherwise hurt themselves. Some want to become increasingly debilitated, even suffer the indignities of tube feedings and IVs, and eventually weaken and die. They see this not as a cry for help or attention, or an attempt to control their lives, but as well-deserved punishment for misperceived flaws and misdeeds. Their extreme self-hatred must be dealt with in therapy if they are to recover.


Feelings

1. Has trouble talking about feelings, especially anger. Denies anger, saying something like, "Everything is OK. I am just tired and stressed." Escapes stress by turning to binge food, exercise, or anorexic rituals.

2. Becomes moody, irritable, cross, snappish, and touchy. Responds to confrontation and even low-intensity interactions with tears, tantrums, or withdrawal. Feels s/he does not fit in and therefore avoids friends and activities. Withdraws into self and feelings, becoming socially isolated.

3. Feels inadequate, fearful of not measuring up. Frequently experiences depression, anxiety, guilt, loneliness, and at times overwhelming emptiness, meaninglessness, hopelessness, and despair.


Self-harm and self-injury

1. In some people the above mentioned feelings are overwhelming, too many and too strong to be endured. To cope, to release the pain, to escape it, to distract themselves, some people hurt their bodies. They cut their flesh or burn it. They bang their heads or swallow foreign objects. They report that while they are engaged in self-harm, they experience peace, tranquility and calm -- a sense of being grounded after feeling tossed about by chaos and misery -- at least for a while, until stress and tension mount again.

2. In some cases, past trauma (especially sexual abuse) has been so devastating that all feelings have been numbed. Then the person self-injures in order to feel something, anything.

3. In spite of appearances, the person who self-injures is not consciously trying to commit suicide. Neither is s/he "only" seeking attention. Self-harm is frequently a symptom of Borderline Personality Disorder, a problem that often co-exists with an eating disorder. Treatment is available and can be combined with treatment for an eating disorder. Evaluation by a mental health care provider is essential. Since people who hurt themselves can inadvertantly create a medical crisis, sooner is better than later.


Social behaviors

1. Tries to please everyone and withdraws when this is not possible. Tries to take care of others when s/he is the person who needs care. May present self as needy and dependent or conversely as fiercely independent and rejecting of all attempts to help. Anorexics tend to avoid sexual activity. Bulimics may engage in casual or even promiscuous sex.

2. Person tries to control what and where the family eats. To the dismay of others, s/he consistently selects low-fat, low-sugar non-threatening -- and unappealing -- foods and restaurants that provide these "safe" items.

3. Relationships tend to be either superficial or dependent. Person craves true intimacy but at the same time is terrified of it. As in all other areas of life, anorexics tend to be rigidly controlling while bulimics have problems with lack of impulse control that can lead to rash and regrettable decisions about sex, money, stealing, commitments, careers, and all forms of social risk taking.


Other behaviors

1. Eating disorders frequently occur in combination with other problems. All of the following deserve professional attention in their own right. When they appear in the company of an eating disorder, professional attention is even more necessary: alcohol abuse, abuse of prescription medications, abuse of recreational drugs, physical, emotional, or sexual abuse; threats of suicide or suicide attempts; cutting or other self-harm behaviors, rage attacks, placing oneself in dangerous situations, homicidal threats or attempts, stealing and other criminal acts, and any other behaviors that can logically be expected to bring harm to self or others.




Definitions of eating disorders

Anorexia nervosa: the relentless pursuit of thinness
Definition:

1. Person refuses to maintain normal body weight for age and height.

2. Weighs 85% or less than what is expected for age and height.

3. In women, menstrual periods stop. In men levels of sex hormones fall.

4. Young girls do not begin to menstruate at the appropriate age

5. Person denies the dangers of low weight.

6. Is terrified of becoming fat.

7. Is terrified of gaining weight even though s/he is markedly underweight.

8. Reports feeling fat even when very thin.

9. In addition, anorexia nervosa often includes depression, irritability, withdrawal, and peculiar behaviors such as compulsive rituals, strange eating habits, and division of foods into "good/safe" and "bad/dangerous" categories. Person may have low tolerance for change and new situations; may fear growing up and assuming adult responsibilities and an adult lifestyle. May be overly engaged with or dependent on parents or family. Dieting may represent avoidance of, or ineffective attempts to cope with, the demands of a new life stage such as adolescence.


Bulimia nervosa: the diet-binge-purge disorder
Definition:

1. Person binge eats.

2. Feels out of control while eating.

3. Vomits, misuses laxatives, exercises, or fasts to get rid of the calories.

4. Diets when not bingeing. Becomes hungry and binges again.

5. Believes self-worth requires being thin. (It does not.)

6. May shoplift, be promiscuous, and abuse alcohol, drugs, and credit cards.

7. Weight may be normal or near normal unless anorexia is also present.

8. Like anorexia, bulimia can kill. Even though bulimics put up a brave front, they are often depressed, lonely, ashamed, and empty inside. Friends may describe them as competent and fun to be with, but underneath, where they hide their guilty secrets, they are hurting. Feeling unworthy, they have great difficulty talking about their feelings, which almost always include anxiety, depression, self-doubt, and deeply buried anger. Impulse control may be a problem; e.g., shoplifting, sexual adventurousness, alcohol and drug abuse, and other kinds of risk-taking behavior. Person acts with little consideration of consequences.



Binge eating disorder
Definition:
1. The person binge eats frequently and repeatedly.

2. Feels out of control and unable to stop eating during binges.

3. May eat rapidly and secretly, or may snack and nibble all day long.

4. Feels guilty and ashamed of binge eating.

5. Has a history of diet failures

6. Tends to be depressed and obese.

7. People who have binge eating disorder do not regularly vomit, overexercise, or abuse laxatives like bulimics do. They may be genetically predisposed to weigh more than the cultural ideal (which at present is exceedingly unrealistic), so they diet, make themselves hungry, and then binge in response to that hunger. Or they may eat for emotional reasons: to comfort themselves, avoid threatening situations, and numb emotional pain. Regardless of the reason, diet programs are not the answer. In fact, diets almost always make matters worse. Information reported in the March 2002 New England Journal of Medicine suggests that for some, but not all, people a genetic flaw in combination with lifestyle factors can predispose to binge eating and subsequent obesity.


Anorexia athletica (compulsive exercising)
Not a formal diagnosis. The behaviors are usually a part of anorexia nervosa, bulimia, or obsessive-compulsive disorder.

1. The person repeatedly exercises beyond the requirements for good health.

2. May be a fanatic about weight and diet.

3. Steals time to exercise from work, school, and relationships.

4. Focuses on challenge. Forgets that physical activity can be fun.

5. Defines self-worth in terms of performance

6. Is rarely or never satisfied with athletic achievements.

7. Does not savor victory. Pushes on to the next challenge immediately.

8. Justifies excessive behavior by defining self as a "special" elite athlete.

9. Compulsive exercising is not an official diagnosis as are anorexia, bulimia, and binge eating disorder. We include it here because many people who are preoccupied with food and weight exercise compulsively in attempts to control weight. The real issues are not weight and performance excellence but rather control and self-respect.




Chewing and spitting
Definition

1. The person puts food in his/her mouth, tastes it, chews it, and then spits it out.

2. Some people think this is a separate eating disorder. It is not. It is a calorie-control behavior commonly seen in anorexia nervosa, and sometimes in bulimia and eating-disorder-not-otherwise-specified. The person is creative, allowing some experience and enjoyment of food but avoiding calories. Since essential nutrients are not incorporated into the body, chewing and spitting can be just as harmful to health as are starvation dieting and binge eating followed by purging.



Orthorexia nervosa
Not an official eating disorder diagnosis, but the concept is useful. The name was coined by Steven Bratman, M.D. to describe "a pathological fixation on eating "proper" or "pure" or "superior" food.

1.People with orthorexia nervosa feel superior to others who eat "improper" food, which might include non-organic or junk foods and items found in regular grocery stores, as opposed to health food stores.

2.Orthorexics obsess over what to eat, how much to eat, how to prepare food "properly," and where to obtain "pure" and "proper" foods.

3.Eating the "right" food becomes an important ,or even the primary, focus of life. One's worth or goodness is seen in terms of what one does or does not eat. Personal values, relationships, career goals, and friendships become less important than the quality and timing of what is consumed.

4.Perhaps related to, or a type of, obsessive-compulsive disorder

Muir Woods

這次去加州,我們去了這個原始紅木林。

我愛樹, 因為從小在樹木之間長大,
在去台北之前,
我幾乎每天都會騎著腳踏車在樹木之間轉來轉去,
就我一個人。

在為賦新詞強說愁的年紀,
我站在鳳凰木下仰望著那細碎枝葉編織的天網,
我望著鄰居草地上鋪了一地的白色雞蛋花和豔紅鳳凰花,
幻想這就是當年桃花源的落英繽紛與芳草鮮美。

我愛樹, 卻沒見過什麼叫做原始森林。
舊年去優勝美地看到了巨大的Sequoia,
那裡有些樹比孔子還老,
但那裡沒有原始林的感覺,
因為樹的周圍就是地而已。完全沒有“這是一個生態系“的完整感。

紅木是世上最高的樹, 最高紀錄超過一百二十公尺,
需要生長在濕冷的地方。

Muir Woods沒有噱頭,
因為高的樹看起來都差不多高,
園方也沒有把其中的古老大樹一一命名。
這不是一個令人驚奇歎為觀止的地方。

但是這地方是道道地地地原始森林。
到了這裡,
我才明白“森“的意思是什麼。
我才明白什麼叫做清幽。
我才明白為什麼Richard Dawkins說
他希望死後可以葬這裡, 雖然那不可能又破壞生態。

但是我明白了。

我如果是呂秀蓮

這時候就應該出來宣布中華民國抵制聯合國維和部隊的暴行,
在聯合國改善以前我國拒絕加入聯合國,
再痛斥一下萬惡的中共與美國放任聯合國軍隊的不法行為,
呼籲重視人權的友邦以退出聯合國表達拒絕同流合污的情操。

反正我們再怎麼吵也無法加入,
不如姿態擺高一點,
也順便炒作媒體幫忙宣傳聯合國維和部隊可恥的行逕。

我覺得這比台灣的買春團還糟糕。


一美元雛妓損聯國形象

【綜合外電報導】十四歲剛果女孩伊薇特每晚都露宿街頭，白天經常和朋友在聯合國維和部隊軍營外流連，不知情的人會當她們是天真的孩童，但當地居民都知道她們是「聯合國一美元女孩」，向維和部隊出賣肉體換取牛奶、汽水或一美元的雛妓。

最小受害者僅12歲
「我覺得很悲傷，但我需要錢。民兵害我不敢去農田工作，誰來養我？」伊薇特細訴她甘願出賣肉體的緣由，她在十歲時遭民兵奪去貞操，沒有男人肯娶她，為了生活，只好放棄尊嚴，出賣肉體。
伊薇特的悲慘故事在剛果其實相當普遍，駐剛果的聯合國維和部隊至少有五十人涉及一百五十起性侵害婦孺暴行，最年輕的受害人只有十二歲。與伊薇特一起賣淫的十六歲少女弗朗辛，就是遭聯國維和部隊侵犯的受害人，她有一次在摩洛哥軍營進行肉體交易後，突然有五名士兵霸王硬上弓，將她輪姦。

小人之心嗎？

隨著我的下一篇論文接近可以發表的時刻,
我越來越怕小人,
因此自己也越來越像小人了。

我們實驗室有個丹麥人,
打從他第一天加入我就跟人說：“他是我這輩子遇過最虛假的人。“
當然 人人都覺得我莫名其妙充滿偏見, 人人都覺得他是個快樂的大好人。

但是我知道他虛偽自私又愚蠢,
因為我看人不是看他說什麼,
而是看他做什麼。

其實我一開始沒那麼不喜歡他。
虛假不是不可接受的缺點。
我天性苛刻,
看人總是先看到缺點,
所以我的朋友們我多是越來越喜歡,
因為我先看到他們一大堆缺點最後才慢慢發覺他們可愛之處。

這個人是派對裡的靈魂,
舞技一流, 風度翩翩。
他的妻子美得像電影明星, 個性又極可愛極好客,
我很喜歡她,
也曾把他視為好同事。

但是一個人不須要大大的背叛我讓我不願再與之為伍。

這個丹麥人很快就表現出他那機會主義者的本色。

他原本是學化工的, 所以生物基礎很差,
實驗室經驗不多, 算術也爛。
他剛來時是第六年博士生, 比我大五歲, 又高我三年級, 卻什麼也不會。
他只會做蛋白質純化和酵素活性測量,
很多基本功都沒有, 連ＤＮＡ電泳都跑不好, 也不會做西方墨點法。
當時他一天到晚問我些笨問題,
同樣的問題重複問好幾次。
因為算術不好, 配溶液常常要我幫他驗算,
而且算出來常常他是錯的。

結果有一天, 他問了我一個問題,
我回答了,
沒過多久老師走進來,
他竟然反過來把我才告訴他的事情“教導“我一遍,

這一類的爛事不一而足,
每次照相時還老要用手環著我的肩膀裝親切,
哼你以為你基努李維啊, 討厭討厭討厭！

我現在在寫的這篇Review,
事實上是與一位生物資訊的人合作的,
在很多方面可以說是原始研究,
但我們考量讀者需求後決定以Review形式投稿。

這個丹麥人在幾年前曾針對另一族的酵素做了類似的研究,
他的東西難度遠比我做的低,
而且我知道真正的分析都是他在丹麥的合作者做的,
最後由他來整理分析的資料,從中獲得結構上的推測並作了酵素的突變和活性測量驗證假說。
這篇也是以review的形式發的。

那篇文章很不錯,
他當第一作者也是應該的,
但他從發了那一篇之後就跩了起來, 忘了自己真本領有幾分。
他發了那篇之後就一直想染指我的東西,
但我當時已經遇到了一個很聰明的生物資訊家與我合作,
因此他每一次千方百計跑來跟我提議要我與丹麥那邊的人合作我都拒絕了。
不久他跟另一個人聯手搶了我們實驗室某個人的project,
雖然我知道這主要是另外那人的詭謀,
我對這丹麥人又多一分戒心。

何況這是我的研究,
我自認我比他有洞察力比他了解什麼是有趣重要的問題什麼不是,
我的研究方向不需要一個比我笨又自以為多聰明的傢伙來混出主意。

現在論文總算接近完成,
他還不死心, 搬出了“老師說的“逼我給他資料做網頁,
我一方面給了他一些東西虛與委蛇, 一方面扣住一些重要資料不給他,
另一方面逼著可憐的李同學偷偷幫我寫網頁。

我現在最擔心的就是他會騙著我老師說他的網頁一定應該寫進我的論文,
再說因為他幫忙做了網頁所以他也要當作者,
那我會嘔死。
或許是我小人之心度他那小人之腹,
但我真覺得與其讓他得逞我寧可不發論文,
一輩子不發也不讓他佔一點便宜。

Gosh I utmost despise, loathe his weasly face.

personality test results

性向指數76分︰
【擇友標準嚴格，防衛他人的侵入】

重視自我的內在層面遠勝於其他的事，故心理境界線偏外側，防衛他人的進入。

擇友標準十分嚴格，所以朋友數屈指可數，但必然都是十分知心的友人。

外表冷漠，內心卻古道熱腸，這點只有與之交往甚久，得其信賴者方能明瞭。

評斷事物理想色彩濃厚，主觀、不易為人所左右，擇善固執的苦幹實幹型人物，
卻也因此露易流於獨善其身，甚至走上「自我嫌惡」的道路。

The Village: 1/2 beautiful love story

Spoiler Warning!!! I always talk about the plot so don't read this if you want to see the movie!!!

I watched "The Village" last night. This is directed/written by the same guy who did "The Sixth Sense" and "The Signs".
I have a major problem remembering his last name. His middle name is Night.

The first half and the last bit of this movie was awesome.
The quiet guy who never talks of love. The blind girl who sees love through his cold facade.
The demented young man who loved them both.
The passionate girl who declares her love with no notion that she could be rejected.
The leader of the elders who never touches a specific woman for fear of his own desires.

Night is a master of succinct dialogues.
He knows that real people do not speak the way they write, so the best way to make dialogues beautiful and real at the same time is to keep them short. Also, country bumpkins do not tend to elaborate themselves and are generally shy in speech.
All of that, however, is just a choice a style. There is a deeper reason for succinct dialogues in a movie of love.

Movies are by nature closer to real life than books and songs. In a movie you don't need to comprehend everything through words. You can see the colors of the skies and the trees, you can hear the characters breathing and sighing, and you can see the hand of a person touching or not touching another. In a world so swamped with catchy phrases, it is refreshing that Night reminded us once again that we should focus on what people do, not what they say.

No, not what they say, and certainly not what you think they imply by the things they say.
(Oh what a long lesson it's been for me to learn THAT simple notion.)

In this movie of love, the first thing the girl said to the guy was about his rejection of her sister and his color.
She was explicit that he was special: he was the only one she could see other than her own dad.

The first thing he said to her was:"You run like a boy." What a compliment.

And then he did not say anything remotely romantic to her until the most touching scene, in which he didn't say anything either.

All she did was stretching her hand out into the unseen danger outside and repeatedly refused her sister to close the door when she believed he was still outside, in danger.

All he did was grabbing her hand right before the creature approached and dragged her into the cellar.

None of these would have been remotely romantic if we hadn't known that he has not touched her for years. Nor if we hadn't known that she knew he didn't touch her because he fears his own desires.

The same love theme replayed itself at her sister's wedding. The girl was dancing and enjoying herself with other boys and the guy was nowhere to be seen until the creatures attacked again. He appeared out of nowhere and grabbed her hand. Never saying a word.

But I think the love story went a bit downhill when she forced him to speak of love. He said a bit too much. I think that was out of his character. A taciturn man simply does not carry on monologues like that.

Back to the love theme.
After all, movies are about fantacies. Lucius Hunt does not exist in real life, though I dare say he exists in the fantasies of many a young woman. What girl would not want a man who adores you so much that he could not bring himself to touch you ever? The combination of strength, handsomeness and silent melancholy is already too good to be true; adding endless adoration to it should conquer any woman.

Unfortunately, it is always the fantasies that do us in, us foolish girls.

In real life, if someone does not hold you when you fake tripping over, it certainly does not mean they care too much for you and they don't want to show it. In real life Ivy would have been devoured by the creatures long before anyone come to rescue.

The story line finally disappointed me when Noah tried to kill Lucius, and from that point on everything just "Hollywooded".
From the characters you see in the first part of the movie,
Noah would never kill anybody, least of all Lucius.
Niether Ivy or Lucius would not be so careless with Noah to not try to console him.
Ivy would not go slap him repeatedly after the incident.
Noah would not try to kill Ivy in the woods.
Ivy would know it was Noah in the woods. Remember, she is blind and she played with Noah way too much to not know.

After all, Noah was only mentally retarded. That does not mean he is a psychopath with no empathy.
If the ending with the partol cop wasn't so brilliant, I would say the movie was ruined half way through.

Well, at least the first half was a uncommonly beautiful love story.

亂改的雜湊

誰說愛情不能不要下圍棋？
雖然棋力進步 腦袋卻痛苦！

＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊
也許你童年缺乏人跟你下棋
也許你過去獲勝都太不容易
也許你習慣別人輸棋 也許
也許你喜歡看我賴皮

等到我真的動了氣
只怕你願棄子投降也已經來不及

愛你 難道一定要陪你下圍棋？
難道要滿盤皆輸 你才高興？
愛你是個難題 愛你是個難題

＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊

張曼玉說 為什麼你不擋我的劍？

我說 為什麼你不黏我的叫吃？

情歌回顧

我聽歌多半不是聽音樂, 而是聽詞。

從小就這樣,
歌詞沒新意, 或是沒道理, 或是不押韻, 或是用字重複, 或是太過露骨, 或是文采不佳的,
我全都不喜歡。

所以阿妹的歌,
我喜歡的只有三四首,
因為她的歌通常一點也不含蓄, 且自從張雨生過世之後文字上意境上都乏善可陳。

所以大部份張學友跟伍佰的歌都不會太吸引我,
因為咬字太不清楚不曉得到底在唱啥。

所以喜歡後期的張信哲,
他唱愛如潮水時我對那歌厭惡透頂,
後來能欣賞那首歌完全是因為那個歌中的男的悲慘得太好笑了。

喜歡很多歌,
常常是因為其中一兩句詞,
在斷章取義後很能反映某段時間自己的心情,
或是反映了我想像中那時候那個人可能會有的心情。
有的時候在收音機裡聽到一首歌,
以為它是在講某種意境而愛上它,
等到找到全首的歌詞發現根本不是那麼回事,
根本只是無聊的俗氣的拾人牙慧的東西,
就覺得失望。

以下就是斷章與所取之義

二零零四年
還沒來得及感受 雪花紛飛的氣候

伊比呀呀伊比依比呀

如果那時真的讓愛留下來 也許現在只會變得更孤獨
情願笑著流過淚 不讓生命荒蕪
也許我們都該慶幸那樣結束

難忘那天的邂遘 剎那間這世界我已擁有
在你對我說愛我以後 有了你人生夫復何求 夫復何求

二零零三年
只剩今夜能容你我與月沉醉
過了今夜對飲要隔千山萬水

直覺我們應屬於彼此 否則我不會每次無法停止
等你等成了堅持 想你想成了心事 眼中渴望來不及掩飾

想念你的好 想念你的外套
想念你白色襪子 和你身上的味道

二零零二年
何時開始變得如此迷人又無情
何時懂得用美貌來換取想要的東西
何時開始用投資報酬率計算妳的愛情
何時開始夢想對妳已經毫無意義
何時開始生活只是單純生存問題

可惜愛不是幾滴眼淚幾封情書 這樣的話或許有些殘酷
等待著別人給幸福的人往往過得都不怎麼幸福

就算是執迷 就讓我執迷不悔

二零零一年
我在我的世界 不能犯規

無論因為自戀所以自私變得自我
還是心似著火恣意摸索終於失落
有人心痛剛過換個人又卿卿我我
有人很想看破拒絕再說愛你愛我

換一個對象 有什麼不一樣
出賣你的是那些渴望渴望渴望
仔細想 誰也不能否認 有人比妳聰明漂亮

二零零零年
長長的思念終於斷了線 多年的纏綿終於失了約
你曾是我的天 讓我仰著臉就有一切

喝一口溫柔 卻跌進滅頂的狂流

為什麼脆弱執著 被鎖在同一個心頭？
為什麼背叛溫柔 能存在同一雙眼眸？


一九九九年
走進你的心 才發覺只是座空城
住得再久我也找不到夠溫暖的燈
每個過路人都以為 是你的腳步聲
我的心不怕苦還是想要等

一九九八年
既然說你快樂 於是乎我快樂 喜怒和哀樂 有我來重蹈你覆轍

我可以假裝做永遠不認輸 也不怕最後是否能找到歸宿
我情願只活在那些年那片段 和回憶追逐

起手無回你從不曾猶豫 我卻受控在你手裡

一九九七年
愛從不逗留 只由人墜落或是成熟
若是它真的要走 不會理你是不是一無所有

曾經為誰 哭紅了眼睛 那是生命中 最美麗的表情

在原諒和絕望之間飄蕩 唯一的感覺是傷 傷 傷
我以為你給了我一線希望 我伸出手卻只是冰冷鐵窗

一九九六年
我愛你已經愛得失去自由 愛得沒有保留 愛得心中著了火
你怎麼能夠說得如此輕鬆 走得如此從容 看我如此心慌失措？

為何相愛相知相信相聚還不夠
見你深夜徘徊冷漠的臉好難過

天真如我 張開雙手 以為撐得住未來

握你的手 卻被你推落 驚見你眼中 翻飛的寂寞

一九九五年
愛你 為什麼須要這麼委曲
難道要鞠躬盡瘁死而後已?

與其讓你在我愛中憔悴 寧願你犯錯後悔

你的世界若不要我陪 告訴我 我試著了解
最怕寂寞子夜 我想到我們之間 遲遲無法入睡

關於寫作的困難

小時候無聊就愛謅小說
問題是沒有一個故事寫得完
肚子裡點子不夠固然是主要障礙
有時候寫著寫著無疾而終
是因為一件無法解決的困難

我的小說裡的男子
說起話做起事總也不像男人
總是像我

寫女孩子像我沒關係
反正可以這個女孩像十四歲的我
那個女孩像二十一歲的我
或是這個像愛玩的我
那個像憂鬱症的我
讀者看起來就像兩不同的人

男孩子像我就不太好了
我總要賦與楊北蕨一個陽剛的個性
讓石紫鳶可以傾心
讓金問蝶不能忘情啊
都像我
故事裡的戀愛還怎麼談啊

問題的癥結在於我不了解男人與男孩子

在寫紫鳶時 我可以想像自己是紫鳶那樣個性的女孩
想像自己會說什麼會做什麼
寫楓冶寫汪栗寫葉晴柔都不難
她們都有些像我
寫荊蘑棲和金問蝶比較難
因為要去揣摩美麗女孩的心理

寫夏鐵杉還好
因為這是有樣本的
他的個性也有很多是我自己

但到了楊北蕨
問題就很明顯了
他應該是的人我寫不出
因為我不知道男生的腦子到底都在想些什麼

我不想把他寫成那種只存在夢想裡的美少年
我希望他真實
問題是美少年都沒有跟我很熟的
所以沒有人可以讓我照樣造句

天啊
請讓我認識風流倜儻美少年一隻
以便讓我寫完山鬼傳吧

我真的只是為了文藝創作而如此要求
沒有不良的企圖

李汝珍與曹雪芹

好長一段時間, 我以為李汝珍是明朝人。
所以我也納悶了好久, 怎麼這些紅學家裡頭都沒人跳出來說紅樓夢有部份是抄襲鏡花緣的?

這幾天把鏡花緣拿出來重讀,
破天荒第一次看了作者介紹,
才頗驚訝的知道了李汝珍其實晚於曹雪芹。

李汝珍生於乾隆末年,卒於道光年間,
曹雪芹說是生於康熙末,卒於乾隆年間。
如此看來鏡花緣中一些小段落類似石頭記,
很可能是因為李汝珍看過石頭記之故。

石頭記與鏡花緣都是以年輕女子為主的故事。
石頭記裡小姐們從小寫到十五六歲,
即使是鳳姐也不過二十五左右,
李紈大概有三十歲。因為賈珠死了以後寶玉才出生的,
賈珠死時已有賈蘭, 算他是遺腹子,
李紈在寶玉十三歲時也至少二十八了。
鏡花緣一百才女都是十六以下,
因為武后規定十六以上不准考。

兩本書的女子都強過男子。
紅樓裡因為寫實,
女子只限於文才見識品格高過男子,
到了鏡花緣,
打虎的殺怪獸的下海殺大蚌的都是女孩子,
最好笑的是魏紫櫻,
殺怪獸的是她,
雖然她家裡有個哥哥魏武,
但這魏武體弱多病所以怪獸都給嬌豔的妹妹殺去。

兩本書都是因為仙緣而起,
命運緣份之說處處皆是。
寶玉夢遊警幻仙境, 得觀金陵十二釵冊, 又聆預言仙曲,
唐小山上小蓬萊, 在水月村泣紅亭得觀仙榜,
之後百草仙子又有聯句預言。
況且泣紅亭之名不禁令人想起警幻的 千紅一窟 和 萬豔同盃

聽說失傳的紅樓夢後半有所謂情榜,
若是真的那百花仙榜就更有抄襲之嫌了。
再加上晴雯成了芙蓉仙子那段,
真讓我疑惑 有多少李汝珍的靈感,是源自紅樓夢。

對我來說,
兩書文字上最類似的是鬥草一段。
我不曉得真正的鬥草是怎麼玩,
照紅樓夢中香菱一段看來,
似乎是採草之後對對子。
羅漢松對觀音柳在兩本書都出現,
有可能是巧合, 畢竟這一對淺近通俗, 鬥草又似乎是大戶女兒常玩的遊戲。
在鏡花緣中孟紫芝提議把鬥草變作花對,
或許是李汝珍看了紅樓中香菱一段獲得的靈感,
好的是他書中有一百個才女可用,
所以什麼冷僻的花草別名全都可以用上,
不像香菱說個夫妻蕙就被嘲笑。
當然李汝珍在此, 以及鏡花緣書中許多地方, 都頗有賣弄之嫌,
不過鬥草一段文字對我這樣喜歡堆砌詩文的讀者來說是挺過癮的。

就整體小說架構, 寫作技巧, 人物刻劃 與情節部局等等來說,
紅樓夢遠遠勝過鏡花緣。
小說家的地位上, 李汝珍與曹雪芹根本不能同日而語。
但是李汝珍也有曹雪芹沒有的才能。

李汝珍很有幽默感。

鏡花緣從頭到尾小笑話不斷,
最好看的是一百才女在卞家花園遊玩一大段,
孟紫芝（含笑花）, 祝題花（芙蓉花）與 董青鈿（笑靨花）鬥智鬥趣,
那一係列的公冶笑話真正經典。

曹雪芹這上頭平常,
前八十回只有小耗子偷香芋很好笑,
黛玉取笑寶釵把嫁妝單子列在畫具單子那段不錯,
其他的笑話都很難笑。
連鳳姐這個腹中無限趣令的,
輪到他講笑話了卻一點也不好笑,
那個放炮仗的笑話我翻來復去就是看不出笑點在哪,
曹雪芹不是個善於搞笑的。

李汝珍不怎麼花力氣刻劃主要人物,
書中正經人唐小山唐敖陰若花的個性既不明顯又無趣至極,
但書中的搞笑人物他都寫的很好,
林之洋, 孟紫芝 和祝題花都好,
可惜只可惜在孟祝二人都寫的更像男孩子的個性。
若是曹雪芹, 決不會把女兒寫的像穿裙子裹腳的男子。

我想,
若說寶玉是曹雪芹的化身,
孟紫芝大約是李汝珍的化身吧?

雖說都是寫女子,
曹筆下的女子全是苦命的,
李筆下只有部份苦命。
李汝珍對生命不那麼悲觀,
百花之中不少死於沙場,
但他們的死並不比男子的死要來的無意義。
李汝珍也為女子的社會地位不平,
但他能幻想出一個女兒國,
讓陰若花黎紅紅與枝蘭音可以一展長才。
曹沒有這樣的樂觀,
他知道在他的社會裡女子唯一的自由就是死和出家,
但他想像不道可以有一個社會不是那樣。

李汝珍才氣比不上曹雪芹,
但他的想像力, 幽默感與人生觀,
給了他的作品不同的價值。

鏡花緣或許不算得世界一流的小說,
但它是一本讓人看了愉快又讓人深思的好書。
Certainly a rare combination, no?

洗腎

一個朋友, 三十歲, 去年開始洗腎。
他有一種先天性的自體免疫疾病,
也就是說他的免疫系統會攻擊他的腎組織,腎就慢慢喪失功能。
多年來他一直服藥控制,
在來這裡工作以前沒有症狀。

他的老闆是出名的嚴酷,
在他們實驗室工作,
周末如果只做半天是不可原諒的懶惰。
他們每周平均工時絕對超過八十小時,
如果沒申請到經費或是經費用完老闆馬上叫你捲舖蓋。

在這樣的壓力下,
他做出了一篇極好的文章,
但他也發病了。

洗腎是一件可怕的事。
首先,
要動手術把身體某處的動脈和靜脈接在一起。
這樣的手術他做了好幾次,
因為感染等等不同的原因。

他一周要洗三次,
一次五小時,
平常有很多東西不能吃：
全穀類, 蔬果及飲品都要嚴格限量,
不能喝含咖啡因的東西。

光是要洗腎已經夠慘了,
他的老闆還因為他洗腎而對他不滿,
因為他無法再像以前那樣長時間工作,
又三不五時的必須開刀而好幾天不能來。

我問他,
那你老闆是要怎樣,
他要捐一個腎給你嗎？

一個那樣成功的科學家,
怎麼能那樣沒有人性?

Oh Captain my Captain

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Blue roses and red shawl

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Madame Toussande---Wax Museum on Time Square

二零零四年倒數第二天,
我們去時代廣場旁的臘像館玩。

雖然門票有點貴,
一個人差不多三十塊美金,
但玩得挺高興的,
就讓照片說話吧。

Dream conversation

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Awkward

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Monroe at her most awkward moment......

Generations of Geniuses

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Well, at least one of them looks like a genius.

Making a political move

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Michael stares

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I guess my outfit didn't belong on his stage.

Apprentice to Steven Spielberg

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The apprenticeship lasted about 15 seconds......

Julia Roberts

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This one didn't look that much like her in the films.

The Hunks

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See, The Rock only has slightly more muscle than the other hunk. :P

Supposed to be J Lo

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J Lo doesn't look too pleased about her new friend.

Deep conversation with Larry King

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Brad Pitt spotted with new girlfriend!

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I should be working for the National Enquirer.

Dream Date

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As my friend El Mariachi said,
This is the ultimate dream date.

Kicking Bush

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After all, wax museums are about realizing your deepest desires.......

Good ones and bad ones......

Standing Close to Bon Jovi

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This was truly an altruistic act.

For I was never a Bon Jovi fan.

I did this for my old friend Marra the Burger.